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Thursday, June 18, 2020

What to Do For This Blog?


What's Next for the Ascended Apprentice? 



I'm not sure what to do with this blog. 

The history in this blog goes back many years. It chronicles a time in my life that I would call my violent spiritual awakening as well as periods of time when I was struggling the most with addictions. Both circumstances felt like I was going to die in one way or the other. 

This blog also sort of chronicles my explorations into mysticism. I felt like I was being initiated into something powerful, but I've since learned that using unhealthy coping mechanisms leads to an unhealthy spiritual awakening. 

But even today I can say "I'm staring over on the Path," and maybe I can do it better than I've done it in the past. Perhaps it can hurt less than it has in the past. Or perhaps I'm better able to navigate the pain of shadow work. 

Here's Google's definition of...

mys·ti·cism
/ˈmistəˌsizəm/
noun
  1. 1. 
    belief that union with or absorption into the Deity or the absolute, or the spiritual apprehension of knowledge inaccessible to the intellect, may be attained through contemplation and self-surrender.
    "St. Theresa's writings were part of the tradition of Christian mysticism"
  2. 2. 
    belief characterized by self-delusion or dreamy confusion of thought, especially when based on the assumption of occult qualities or mysterious agencies.


Two very different ideas of mysticism, one describing a great truth of the mystical path, and the second giving the idea of what most people think of if I were to tell them "I'm on a mystical path."

This blog needs to be reoriented...

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I have been keeping a journal this past year, mostly to talk about my school work as a Senior at Georgia Southwestern State University as an English Major. But I'm also returning to walk consciously in my Spiritual Path. I'm still exploring different ideas of spirituality, some religious, some mystical. I've found many traditions that speak of a service to humanity and of selfless living. I've been spending a lot of time on the website for Center for Sacred Science in Oregon. I've been reading their Ten Selfless Precepts, almost once a day for the past couple of weeks. 

They are something I can aspire to, but if the way I've lived my life in the past decades is any indication of my future...  I don't know if it's actually possible to live a human life with holding true to all ten of these all at the same time for any major length of time, but I think the act of "trying" or "self assessing" each day on my progress is actually doing something very positive to me. I'm going to keep reading them and thinking about the idea of being Selfless, whatever that actually means.

If you're reading this far, thanks for visiting this blog, which I think I'm going to start using as my spiritual journal, electronic grimoire and place where I just put my thoughts in words. That's all it's ever been, as I consider myself an Apprentice on the pathway of Light and Dark, living a life filled with both but striving to bring more Light into the world.


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