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Friday, June 19, 2020

Old Blog Description

This was this blog's previous description:

2013 - June 2020

"A unique perspective of Ascension, Awareness and ultimate Spiritual Awakening and Liberation. Here I share my experiences with the new energies of the "New Earth," which have reminded me of my mastery, my heritage and unique role as an aware blending of SOURCE energies, an important piece of the Creator. As Apprentice of Elohim, I currently seek Oneness and Unity Consciousness - All to energetically anchor and support the world's safe and successful Ascension."


I've gone from a fixation on the idea of Ascension for all humanity to focusing on pursing advanced education and hopefully earning a career within the next five years. It's hard to focus on both at times, but I think I was using my descent into spiritual rabbit holes to cloud my judgement in the past. I think one can live their life like they want to, though I do feel intwined with higher powers that are pulling my life in a certain direction that will involve me pursing advanced education first.

Above all, I trust God, the Universe, my Deities...whatever you want to call that sense of benevolence, joy and wonder I feel when I focus on that which is Higher. That is leading me on a path toward a better future, and they are certainly giving me amazingly great days with a close family and a circle of friends. I'm living one day at a time, and I'm finding joys in each and every day. That makes for a life worth living, right?

My Near Future (the next few years)

The Beginnings of a Plan



If I go back and reread the entires in this blog, I feel a mixture of sympathy, wonder and, yes, pity too. But somehow I picked myself up and have still survived the best I can living in a body really injured and broken down by how hard I partied in my 20s and 30s. I'm hoping I can revitalize myself through good diet, exercise, some herbal supplements and taking my physician-prescribed medicines everyday. This blog makes me hyper-aware of the bumpy road I've walked in my life.

But doesn't everyone have their own bumpy road? Suffering is something all humans have in common, and we can have compassion with each other if we seek to understand it. Many Spiritual Traditions and Religions teach ways to alleviate or comfort suffering. Some take away a lot of pleasure too, and that just has never really sat well with me. I feel like I'm supposed to enjoy this human life, with liberty and in the pursuit of happiness. 

The life I have now, I am not really that aware of my suffering, as I've reached the point in my life where I'm thankful to be alive each day. I am doing my best to live each day where I continue to increase my education and knowledge of this world. I'm making plans for a late-in-life career.

And that requires engaging with the "ReAL WorLD" and actually finishing my degree. That requires a lot of discipline, but I'm making almost all A's and excelling at school. I was awarded a special scholarship for Non-Traditional students.

I'm in my last year at my University, and I'm already setting my sights on Grad School the following year. I have some options there, regarding what to study and what to choose as a career destination for after I finish my education. I have seven classes to take to finish my Bachelor of Arts in English after this Summer semester. I'm really believing in myself, and I'm convinced I can successfully complete it

I could possibly pursue a Master of Arts in English. I'd be well-qualified and able to succeed in that, I believe. That would be amazing as well as also quite expensive ($30K). I'd be directly using what I've been studying so hard at GSW for my English degree, and I'd be expansing what I could learn about literature, composition and the study of language even further. What I'm studying is shaping how I'm thinking, what I think about and how I feel about the human race looking at it through the lens of our literature.

Or perhaps I could get a Masters in Education in Counseling focused on Mental Health Counseling at a University in a city near my home in rural SW Georgia. I believe this would require a deeper commitment to serving others and a commitment to better myself as best I can to be able to serve people that need help in situations of crisis. That might be a tall order for me, to be honest. But it's a very real option I can consider.

I think what I'm going to do is work hard to fulfill the requirements for both of these two schools, and then depending on financial concerns (which are a very real issue in my pursing a Graduate degree) and where my heart, mind and soul take me as I finally finish a Bachelor's degree after many, many years of working toward one.

Thursday, June 18, 2020

What to Do For This Blog?


What's Next for the Ascended Apprentice? 



I'm not sure what to do with this blog. 

The history in this blog goes back many years. It chronicles a time in my life that I would call my violent spiritual awakening as well as periods of time when I was struggling the most with addictions. Both circumstances felt like I was going to die in one way or the other. 

This blog also sort of chronicles my explorations into mysticism. I felt like I was being initiated into something powerful, but I've since learned that using unhealthy coping mechanisms leads to an unhealthy spiritual awakening. 

But even today I can say "I'm staring over on the Path," and maybe I can do it better than I've done it in the past. Perhaps it can hurt less than it has in the past. Or perhaps I'm better able to navigate the pain of shadow work. 

Here's Google's definition of...

mys·ti·cism
/ˈmistəˌsizəm/
noun
  1. 1. 
    belief that union with or absorption into the Deity or the absolute, or the spiritual apprehension of knowledge inaccessible to the intellect, may be attained through contemplation and self-surrender.
    "St. Theresa's writings were part of the tradition of Christian mysticism"
  2. 2. 
    belief characterized by self-delusion or dreamy confusion of thought, especially when based on the assumption of occult qualities or mysterious agencies.


Two very different ideas of mysticism, one describing a great truth of the mystical path, and the second giving the idea of what most people think of if I were to tell them "I'm on a mystical path."

This blog needs to be reoriented...

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I have been keeping a journal this past year, mostly to talk about my school work as a Senior at Georgia Southwestern State University as an English Major. But I'm also returning to walk consciously in my Spiritual Path. I'm still exploring different ideas of spirituality, some religious, some mystical. I've found many traditions that speak of a service to humanity and of selfless living. I've been spending a lot of time on the website for Center for Sacred Science in Oregon. I've been reading their Ten Selfless Precepts, almost once a day for the past couple of weeks. 

They are something I can aspire to, but if the way I've lived my life in the past decades is any indication of my future...  I don't know if it's actually possible to live a human life with holding true to all ten of these all at the same time for any major length of time, but I think the act of "trying" or "self assessing" each day on my progress is actually doing something very positive to me. I'm going to keep reading them and thinking about the idea of being Selfless, whatever that actually means.

If you're reading this far, thanks for visiting this blog, which I think I'm going to start using as my spiritual journal, electronic grimoire and place where I just put my thoughts in words. That's all it's ever been, as I consider myself an Apprentice on the pathway of Light and Dark, living a life filled with both but striving to bring more Light into the world.